I think (knock on wood) that I am turning a corner... I think I am putting the past behind me. In the wise words of Rafiki, I am choosing to learn from it, not run from it...
Something awful happened to me. Something broke my heart. I lost my best friend.
But you know what else happened? A large group of people, my support, surrounded me, protected me, and showed me love, kindness, and understanding. They let me cry, mourn, yell, hurt, and heal. It's true what they say: you find out who your friends are.
Maybe I did lose the person I thought was my best friend, but I have found myself closer with my remaining friends, who I've found are more vast than I knew.
I'm seeing more clearly now, and those friends who are around aren't as exhausting. They don't drain me. They lift me up. They fill up my cup. And after being the person filling everyone else's cup up for so long, I have to admit, it's been nice to be doted on a bit.
I am extremely thankful for all of the messages, calls, notes that I have received. I feel like I have an army of support and for that I am eternally grateful. It's been what's gotten me through. It's what's tipped the scale and made my days turn sunny again. It's been hard to stay down in the dumps when surrounded by good people and good vibes. Because of all of you - my readers, my family, my friends - today, I am not sad. Today, I am choosing happy. And I have you to thank for that. XXOO.
